Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Fertility isn't always FREE...

Magical World of Disney:


Happy 2nd Birthday Stevie:

(She just wanted to dig into that cupcake and the fire on top scared her!
She recoved quickly!)
Another month has gone away and now we are only 10 weeks away from Alex's graduation date! Can you feel our excitement? If you can't, it's probably because we are too TIRED to be excited right now, but the end is in sight. We have a countdown calendar on our wall to remind us of that fact! Alex will soon have an MS and considering all that is going on in our country economically... we are especially grateful for our education.

I (Tiff) have had to find some ways to cope after my YW leadership got changed around. I knew I couldn't have all the best ladies in our ward working with me forever, but I could dream. Things are stabilizing now and I'm excited to work with our "new additions." Perhaps as a process in my grieving for those lost, I cut my hair in a major way... and got highlights! (Something I haven't done since I was 15!) I love it, and I loved getting to spend some time with my most wonderful college bunnies/hippos Kim, Leah & Sara Boo at the temple.

Disney world/Orlando FL was WONDERFUL! We hadn't had a family vacation in too long and it was so choice to see little Stevie and Pa-Pa so excited about everything. Stevie was an angel the whole time (except when the Snow White witch scared the poop out of her!) but by the end of day 4 she had fallen victim to a harsh sensory overload. I always remember loving Disney trips as a kid, but I had lost the magic somewhere in my adolescence. I never realized until now, how remarkable it could be to discover something all over again through the eyes of a child.

Of note in our fertility journey: My other cyst cleared up and we were able to have a "real" treatment cycle in September, but it was unsuccessful. The doctor is optimistic and says if there is no progress we will reevaluate treatment in a few months. The good news is, I ovulated on my own (without hCG) for the first time and there was an egg from each ovary (which is great because one tube is blocked) AND my progesterone level was 24 (awesome, considering my prescriptions and history of bad progesterone!) It has been near weekly appointments and sometimes as much as 11 different pills I have to down on a given day (all of which have their own nasty little side effects) but in the coming months it will lessen to only 1 visit to the doc each month... thank goodness! I will have to say, the hardest pill to swallow right now is the Bill! They sneak up on you with a $103 visit here, a $79 Rx there and then you realize as you try to pay your bills: fertility isn't always free.

So, there are a lot of question marks in our future right now? How long will we be on Algiers Drive? Where will Alex be working, come Jan 1, 2009? Will we be expecting before Stevie turns 3? Most of our questions are largely out of our hands and will depend a lot on economics. For now, we do what we can with the things that are within our ability to control.